Turning a new leaf does not always mean all of the leaves.
My leaves of life are ever-changing but sometimes I feel like certain leaves change more than others.
Once again, I find myself on social media seeing wedding pictures and the love between two people. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for them. But sometimes I ask myself, why hasn’t my leaf of love been changed? Honestly, there are moments in my life where I am happy and content. I wave my strong, single independent lady flag high. But sometimes I want a companion who likes me likes me. I would like to be treated out. I’m not all about law school and career goals. Sometimes I want to have someone who gives me butterflies…
I know what you are going to say: He will come when you least expect it. Bianca, marriage is hard work, be happy that you are single. Don’t complain..you have a lot going for you. You’re going to wish you were single when you get married. Enjoy your single hood. Etc…
Yeah thanks but no thanks for your “encouragement.” 27 years of waiting gets to you at times. It is not easy. I am human and I have needs too. My flesh is very weak but I will keep holding out for the best that God has for me. It’s just hard sometimes to really be single.
This is not a cry for help (don’t pity me). I am not requesting phone numbers of single men (please don’t..this is not the Bachelorette). This is a honest perspective of a cool, smart, single Christian lady waiting for love in 2017.
Blissfully,
Bianca
