How I Appear
But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”-1 Samuel 16:7
When I am discriminated, marginalized, overlooked, and prejudiced for the way I look, I try to remember that my heart is not black with hate, but red and full because of Jesus.
Yes, I know it is 2018. We had a black President. Quit race-baiting, Why can’t you get over yourself in thinking everybody’s a racist…I hear these comments all the time.
I wish I could live my life freely without thinking about my race. But I can’t fool myself. My parents told me as kind as I am, some people won’t want to see my character but just see my skin color.
Yes, I have been followed in a store for no reason.
Yes, I have been called the n-word.
Yes, I have been discriminated everywhere…including church.
Yes, I must work to be 10 times better, faster, and stronger than other groups to achieve in life.
Yes, I have been told that I am too white and not black enough.
Yes, I have been profiled.
Yes, I have been discriminated by my own people.
This is my experience in the 28 years I have been alive. I can’t wish the discrimination away. People have said it to my face. Have pretended to like me on the one hand but on the other hand be racist and act different towards people like me (i.e. two-faced). Or the shady people who politely express their racists thoughts. This is my life. I’m living while black. I learn to roll with the hate and let it slide off.
My Genetic Makeup
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful. I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.-Psalm 139:13-16
There were moments in my life where I did not like the color of my skin, my hair, my history, and my entire being. It was like…
“Why would a country known as the melting pot condone slavery, Jim Crow laws, legislation that created discrimination, or exploitation of minorities?
Why do people look at me funny?
Why do people say I am the whitest black they have every met? OR I speak well for a black person?
Why can’t I just be me?
My sweet Haitian mom would always tell me, “Bianca, you are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are not a mistake. You are not in anyone’s spot. You are you. If people don’t like you because of your skin color, then they got to take it up with God.” Sometimes it got annoying but I still hold that truth when someone tries to discount me. God made me with more melanin in my skin. But God knew who I was before my mother knew me. He specifically designed Bianca for the world. He formed me for a purpose. Nobody can take that away from me. I am more than my skin color.
So the next time you fall into doubt about who you are and whose you are. Insert your name: God specifically design “me, your name” for the world. I have a purpose. Nobody can take what God has put in me. That my friends is confidence in the King.
Today In 2018
Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates a brother or sister is still in the darkness. Anyone who loves their brother and sister lives in the light, and there is nothing in them to make them stumble. But anyone who hates a brother or sister is in the darkness and walks around in the darkness. They do not know where they are going, because the darkness has blinded them.-1 John 2:9-11
With the current administration, I start seeing people’s true feelings and tendencies. I must question and discern who genuinely likes me as a person or is pretending. To be blunt, this administration has shown so much hatred that it is sickening. And the people who support, stay silent, or condone the hate and injustice of racism are guilty. PERIOD. You are looking from the outside.
I have unfriended, unfollowed, or separated myself from people like that. I can’t be around people who “like sweet Bianca” yet say foul, foolish racist things. Yes, we are people and we disagree but there is no place for violence, threats, or hate.
Be true to yourself. If you are racist, then at least I know. But you do not live in truth but in darkness. I pray for these people who say Christ is my Savior but display racial bigotry. I really hope they know the truth of Jesus in their hearts because if not, eternity will be a desolate, wasteland of pain and agony for them.
All For One
For we were all baptized by one Spirit so as to form one body—whether Jews or Gentiles, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.-1 Corinthians 12:13
Racism is not of God. It’s not what He created us for. He created us for unification. To be one body. When Jesus went to the Cross and died for humanity’s sin, it vanquished division. So division by racism is sinful in God’s eyes. The Enemy wants division, us against them, stereotypical boxes from society, “the supreme race.” The Enemy wants us to hate one another. The more we hate, the more he stirs the sin.
But the beauty of the Enemy’s reign is it is temporary. Jesus will come back and restore everything. Humanity will be one. All will bow..even Satan himself. There will be no wars, suffering, or division. God will unify all of us under Him.
For God does not show favoritism.-Romans 2:10
So not sorry to burst your bubble but there is no supreme race. One race is not better than another. God does not favor anyone but regards all. All are one in His Kingdom.
What To Do Now?
Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.-Ephesians 4:29-32
Washington cannot fix the problem. It all starts and ends with your heart. You have a choice as a human being. God is on the side of humility. Racism is evil. PERIOD! Whatever is in your heart will flow in what you do and how you treat people. That is all.