Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.-Proverbs 3:5-6
Easier said than done but this is how I am living. Trusting means surrender to self. I am learning constantly to give up what I thought my plans were. God has changed my direction. I am casting nets that come up empty: job rejections, failed test results, relocation failure.
And yet… God says keep trying, you will figure it out. I am with you.
To be honest, there are moments where He seems so far away. It just seems like I am going at it alone. Facing the world and its nonverbal/verbal opinions of my failure.
And yet…God says keep trying, you will figure it out. I am with you.
It’s like I can only see the small light in front of me in the tunnel. Or the tiny thread in the quilt. I desire brightness to light my way. I desire to see the whole tapestry. But God will only give me what I need at the moment. It is quite frustrating not knowing the grand plan.
And yet, God says trust me. I know where you are going. I am with you.
It’s very hard not knowing where I am going. What I thought would be a couple months had been two years of struggling. I am learning contentment every day where I am. I am trying to trust, breathe, and keep living.
And still God says trust me and keeping going. I am with you.