Where I Have Been?

Where I Have Been?

Like a tree, it goes through seasons. There is a time of growth and change. It is green and full of life. The blooms and fruit come forth. It goes through range of reds, oranges, and yellows depending how close they are to the sun. All the leaves fall and die to make way for new growth. 

With me, life has happened.  I was employed for the midterm elections (early voting and election day) as a poll official which was an eye-opening experience. 

Then, after that…I felt stuck. I felt depressed with the season I am currently in. As you know, I did not pass the Bar. At the beginning, I was positive and empowering myself that I will take it again and this won’t break me. 

And then it broke me…

As I started studying again, my spirit felt damaged. I was doubting myself. I just felt stuck. Like God, I am right where I started earlier this year. I am an unemployed, postgraduate studying for the Bar again. 

People I started with made it. And I didn’t make it.

I was depressed and my anxiety made me lower. I had to take a break from social media. And I just stopped blogging. My spirit was not in the right place to write inspirational posts. I don’t want to fake it. It would not be fair to my followers. I want to be as authentic as possible.  So I just stopped…

I did not want to let you all down but I couldn’t go on. I had no inspiration or theme to post about. I wanted to find the peace that surpassed all understanding. I wanted to be content in this season. That this is not the end for me.

I am feeling better. I had to take my own advice: get back in the Word, pray, talk out my feelings, and keep positivity in my life. I am still going at studying for the Bar. I am still living and breathing by God’s grace. I still have purpose.

So my lesson in this struggle is simple: God will not let you go.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”-Joshua 1:9

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.-Isaiah 41:10

It always seems to me like God is watching this unfold but He is not. God knew this before the foundation of the world. He knew that I would not pass the Bar the first time around. He knew that I would be between states once again. He knew that I would need my family to get through this. He knew I would be serving on my church’s worship team. He knew it all.

I have to remind myself that I am not a failure. I’m not dumb. I am still meant to be an attorney. It’s just that my journey is not over. I will get there in His timing by His strength. 

It’s just not my time now. I am still in the autumn stage with beautiful, bright, colorful yet dying leaves. But I know it will spring up into new blooms soon.

So with this season, I will not be posting blogs till Spring 2019 (i.e. after the Bar). I am focusing on Bar studies and myself for the time being. I hope you all understand. I love and appreciate you all for reading. Keep reading my old blogs. Send me a message, follow me on FB, and keep being inspired. God Bless.

Blissfully,

Bianca

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The Modern, Proverbs 31 Helping Hand

The Modern, Proverbs 31 Helping Hand

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She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.- Proverbs 31:20

A woman who gives sets the example of Jesus’s heart for service. I’m not talking about the family but other people. A giving spirit produces reward and blessings. Not saying that you do things for something in return but God sees the obedience to His will. You are an ambassador of Christ. What people see is what you give.

I am not the person I am today without my mother. She gave and still gives so much to others. She has given hospitality to relatives, to a pregnant woman in a domestic violence situation, survivors of the Haiti 2009 earthquake, and many other people. She uses her medical knowledge to benefit others even though my sister has her own medical problems. She goes on medical missions to share her gifts. She translates for Haitian immigrants and is willing to give time and energy to them. No matter what her life situation was, she served with all her heart. (Yes, she is amazing).

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I witnessed her servant’s heart. Yes, she told me about Jesus but she acted on what He is about. She always tells me: “Your gifts are not for you but for everyone.” She inspired me to practice immigration law when I am an attorney. To give to immigrant communities the way she does. I may not have the same spiritual gifts as my mom but I try to act as the hands and feet of Jesus. God gave me talents in music, art, and writing. So I share my gifts from the example of my mother.

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I’m not saying women need to do lavish acts of kindness and service. But use your gifts. Women are talented. Give according to Christ’s commands and the way God convicts you. If you are alive and breathing, you have talents and purpose. People need you. Not everyone can do what you do. Extend your giving to many and reap heaven’s rewards and blessings in your household and beyond.

Blissfully,

Bianca

The Skies Are Changing

The Skies Are Changing

On the horizon of a new beginning, the atmospheric skies are changing .

The blueprint you anticipated has flipped.

What you desired is not what is in store.

The strategy has changed but the goal is unchanged.

It may seem like failure but as you look up, the sun shines brightly.

The skies are changing but God is still saying “I am still rooting for you.”

You look down to earth, look inside yourself, and move forward.

Heaven is working on your behalf.

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Blissfully,

Bianca

Mama B’s Values

Mama B’s Values

In the world we live in, important values tend to take a backseat to greed, sin, violence, and many harmful things. So Mama B wants to break the cycle and give you values to keep in mind.

  1. Love Jesus. I am biased but Jesus has never steered me wrong. Jesus has a purpose for you. Jesus loves you so much He went on the Cross and rose. What greater love can you find.
  2. Love yourself. There is one YOU. Value who you are. No person can love you, besides Jesus, that could fill the insecurities you deal with.
  3. Find your purpose. I believe that we are all placed on this Earth for a reason. It may take time but to live in your purpose is a great feeling.
  4. Listen and learn from people. As humans, we are created differently. We may not all agree but you can learn from one another.
  5. Kindness goes a long way.
  6. Have good character. You can make or break your reputation based on your character.

A few of many values I have but this is a start. Love you all.

Blissfully,

Bianca

The Cramm Award

The Cramm Award

Hello, everyone!

I am honored to be nominated by the wonderful Specscladeyes for two very amazing awards! I want to thank you for thinking about me as a worthy person for these nominations.

THE CRAMM AWARD

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TheCramm award was created by Liv, the owner of theCramm.

Rules:

  • Include a little bit about who created this award (with a link) and mention the person the who nominated you.
  • Share 3 things that motivate you to blog and share 3 people that motivate you to blog as well
  • Share one thing you hope to do that will improve the world
  • Answer your challenge question
  • Nominate your choice of bloggers and give them a challenge question.

Three Things that Motivate Me:

  1. God.
  2. My Family.
  3. Life Experiences.

Three people Who Motivate Me:

  1. God.
  2. My Parents.
  3. My Friends and Peers.

One Thing I Hope To Do That Will Improve the World:

I hope to give encouragement and joy to people around the world. Life is hard. There are many things that can go bad, so I chose to reflect on the good. I want everyone to know that they are loved, valued, and heard.

Answering my Challenge Question: What is your strategy to stay positive during the tough times?

My strategy is Jesus. There are many times in my life where my anxiety and depression weigh me into a deep, dark pit. The strategy is to pray for peace in the situation, seek truth in God’s Word, and hold on to the people I love and trust to help me in the valleys.

Challenge Question for the nominees: What is your creative process when you post?

THE BLOGGER RECOGNITION AWARD

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Rules:

  1. Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  2. Write a post to show your award.
  3. Give a brief story of how your blog started.
  4. Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers

The Story of Blissfully Bianca

Many friends and peers kept telling me how I give great advice and encouragement on Facebook. I have been told I should write a book or start a blog. I was skeptical about being one of those bloggers so I asked other people who blog. I looked on Pinterest for ideas. I listed pros and cons. I asked my sister and parents if they think I should do it.  I asked my friends if they would read my blog and if they could come up with a name. If you did not notice, I do not make decisions lightly. In August 2016, I took a leap of faith. I looked up words that would match my name and I can across blissfully. I looked it up in the dictionary; it defined blissfully as in a manner characterized by extreme happiness or joy. That was the message that I wanted to convey: I wanted people to be who God created them to be. God blissfully created the universe. I want people to know their worth. I want to be that voice of love and encouragement.

Advice to New Bloggers.

My important advice is love what you write. There are days where the words and encouragement flows out of me. There are other days where my words would seem fake and not from my heart. I made a rule that if my intent is not based on God, love, and encouragement, then I do not post. I clear my mind. I take a step back. In the Bible, in 1 Corinthians 16:14, it reads “Do everything in love.” So love what you write. Some days you will not feel it and that’s ok. I take my time and get inspired by the littlest things and the Jesus, Love Factory gets me writing.

Nominations for Both Awards:

 

Thank you for reading 🙂

Blissfully,

Bianca

A Breath of Fresh Air

A Breath of Fresh Air

Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise.

Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.-Proverbs 19:20-21.

No matter where you are in life, God’s purpose still prevails.