This quote speaks more volumes in my life now than before. Even through the valleys, there is a lesson, a testimony, and guidebook for someone else down the road. Survival makes strength.
I know the feeling where each day is a struggle to wake up, get out of bed, and face the world. The tribulation can be so much to handle. You feel and can almost hear people’s opinions and criticisms of your situation. You almost feel ashamed about your situation.
But you have to face it head on no matter how embarrassed, sad, depressed, and down you feel. Pretty much, my situation. But I know I have survived a lot. I am just climbing. I am learning and growing. Climbing to my mountaintop.
If you are still climbing to your goals, you are building your strength, endurance, and perseverance if you do not give up.
Keep brushing yourself off. Keep your head up. Fight each day no matter how it is. Learn to climb. And then you will see how far you’ve come.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.-Proverbs 3:5-6
Easier said than done but this is how I am living. Trusting means surrender to self. I am learning constantly to give up what I thought my plans were. God has changed my direction. I am casting nets that come up empty: job rejections, failed test results, relocation failure.
And yet… God says keep trying, you will figure it out. I am with you.
To be honest, there are moments where He seems so far away. It just seems like I am going at it alone. Facing the world and its nonverbal/verbal opinions of my failure.
And yet…God says keep trying, you will figure it out. I am with you.
It’s like I can only see the small light in front of me in the tunnel. Or the tiny thread in the quilt. I desire brightness to light my way. I desire to see the whole tapestry. But God will only give me what I need at the moment. It is quite frustrating not knowing the grand plan.
And yet, God says trust me. I know where you are going. I am with you.
It’s very hard not knowing where I am going. What I thought would be a couple months had been two years of struggling. I am learning contentment every day where I am. I am trying to trust, breathe, and keep living.
And still God says trust me and keeping going. I am with you.
Your identity was created and formed by the Creator of the Universe. Let no one tell you otherwise. You have purpose. Yes, you evolve with life experiences. You grow for the better, not for worse. A different season may require a different version of you but never lose your essence.
Personally, when I moved to Jacksonville and starting a new chapter in law school, I promised myself to not be swept away. I wanted to still be Bianca..but a better version. I did not want my faith in God to waiver, lose my morals and values, and lose my personality. God fearfully and wonderfully made me genuine and set apart. I am still Bianca but I am a better version not a different version.
So I encourage you to change, grow, and thrive as a better version of you. You are wanted and you are strategically placed on the Earth for a reason. Never lose who you are.
It started with many people saying I have encouraging words to uplift and my positivity is refreshing…but one person told me you should blog… “I would read your thoughts and words of encouragement.”
So on an August afternoon turned into asking general vague questions on Facebook about me starting a blog, researching the pros/cons and nuances of blogging, seeking advice from my circle. After contemplating, I answered the call.
Now a name…after word searches, asking people, and throwing out names…and a day to mull over my decision, Blissfully Bianca was born.
In this year as a blogger, I have seen my words have power. I have connected with beautiful people from around the country and around the world. I am still learning as I go but the best is yet to come. My year as a blogger has not been solitary but a great community of friends.
Thank you all for viewing, liking, commenting, giving me feedback, and giving me a platform. Love you all!!
I grew up watching America’s Next Top Model and Project Runway. I adore the fashion world. My dream is to walk and buy things from Rodeo Drive (LA) and Fashion Ave, (NYC), to attend Fashion Week, and meet Tim Gunn (Project Runway) in NYC or anywhere.
Society likes to tell women how to look and how to be like. It’s like you have be size of a lollipop stick to be beautiful. I believe every person on Earth is fearfully and wonderfully made. God made us different for a reason. Your body is a beautiful temple because God said so.
Ashley Graham is a beautiful model…period. She is confident and chooses to embrace the skin she is in. I encourage you with her story and her words of encouragement.