I Thank My God For Every Circumstance to Be Content

I Thank My God For Every Circumstance to Be Content

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I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.  I can do all this through him who gives me strength.-Philippians 4:11-13

Not every circumstance is perfect. There are good days and bad days but each day God gives you is a blessing.

I have been saying for a while, I am in the in-between season of life from law school to real world. Well now, I am in the season of adjustment and adapting. I am still working towards being a licensed attorney by taking the Bar in another jurisdiction. After failing the Bar for a second time, I really had to take a step back and reevaluate this plan I imagined. My plan was not working. But the problem was, it was not God’s plan up until this point.

The big question I struggled with was: Am I content where I am? The truth was: I wasn’t. I wanted my come-up and it was this elaborate plan to get my independence on and live it up! I thought it was better for me to live away from comfort permanently.

But I realized that God gave me the opportunity to be content and independent from my family when I was in law school. I learned a lot about myself in Florida being a young, independent law student in that season. I was content with my life there and God allowed that time for me.

Now, after April, I had to learn how to get that content spirit back because I just wanted that life again. But as I started to look around, I saw that I had provisions to be content about that I did not have in Florida.: First off, I had my support system with me instead of six hours away. Second off, I had my basic necessities: food, clothing, shelter for FREE (can I get an amen?). Third, I had my church home and pastor who is one of my mentors close by. Fourth, I still had the same talents and gifts I had before but I just needed to tap into it where I was.

Sometimes, you have to really look inside yourself and pray for God to reveal the joys you forgot you had. I wrestled with that this past summer but now I am in a better place looking to the future. I am still grinding and hustling but still growing in contentment. I have been more active in finding the joy in the present. I take each day at a time.

I learn contentment every day. Every second, every moment. Whether I am serving at my church, serving my family, or serving my community, I learn the peace of contentment that surpasses all understanding. It keeps me balanced and sane.

God is holding my moments: today, tomorrow, and forever. I just have to learn to be present and thankful in every season.

I encourage you to find true contentment in Jesus Christ. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. You can never go wrong with His love and power. He has never steered me wrong though I steer myself wrong. His grace is sufficient in everything. His peace can be your peace.

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.-1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

It is daily to exercise your contentment muscle but you can do it. Speak of your blessings (even as simple as waking up), talk to God (He is listening), and be thankful. It will not fail you and God will not fail. Therefore, I thank my God for every circumstance to be content.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Conquering the Test

Conquering the Test

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Don’t worry, no pop test here. Trust and believe, I would not blog to give you readers an exam. But life surely gives us tests. Lots of tests. You have either survived a test, are about to enter a test, or will enter a test down the road. It is inevitable but manageable in God’s eyes.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,  because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.  If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.  But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.  That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.  Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.-James 1:1-8,12

In my favorite book of the Bible, James, he is writing a letter to the scattered tribes of believers. They are being persecuted for their faith and it seems helpless. The tests are actively crumbling and discouraging these early Christians. But, James chooses to encourage and strengthen them with how the testing is not for pain but for growth.

Trouble does not last forever but you cannot fight with your own strength. God’s strength and power covers the multitudes of trials, pains, hurts, and disappointments. Perseverance comes from daily wisdom and walking with the Lord.

I wish I could say you get instant answers and be fine but it’s not. It takes the faith where you cannot see but believe. Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.-Hebrews 11:1. The reality is that faith is relying on something greater than the physical. In James, it says to believe and not doubt because you will be susceptible to the worldly chaos of life.

Jesus was tested but he followed God’s wisdom in His Word. It is about staying in Scripture and knowing the truth of your struggle is NOT in vain but for a great purpose.

I am in a season of the in-between. I have experienced two steps forward and ten steps back in repetition…constantly. Even in the setbacks, I always have to remind myself that the struggle is greater than feeling defeat and hopelessness. I do believe my miracle and blessings will come TENFOLD. God has not brought me this far to leave me. I have survived and endured through so much. And the Enemy has not taken me out. I am still the Daughter of A King. And in the great words of Jacob, I will not let go until you bless me. (Genesis 32:26) The Enemy is working hard because something greater is on the horizon. I have seen God use my tests for someone else down the line. I have been able to pour into others. I would not have had the ability had I not gone through what I went through.

Conquering the test of life is ALWAYS beyond the visible. God is in the inner-working. He knows the grand scheme of your struggle. It is to prune and to shape your character. I will say again, nothing is in vain.

Do not give up. Keep going. You will pass the test and conquer.

Blissfully,

Bianca

A Conqueror’s Secret Weapon

A Conqueror’s Secret Weapon

And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?-Romans 8:30-32

You conquer because God is on your side. All of us encounter opposition. It’s inevitable but you know what? You have something that prevails overtime against any foe: Jesus Christ. Jesus already conquered sin and death. He gave Himself for humanity. Which means whatever obstacle, in Jesus’s name, is handled.

Let that sink in for a moment…

You already have whatever God has in store for you. God knows the desires of your heart. He knows and supplies all of your needs.

You conquer because He conquered. Keep going. Keep fighting. Keep persevering. You will make it.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Back To Basics: Don’t Give Up!

Back To Basics: Don’t Give Up!

Sometimes situations seem hopeless. It feels like no matter what you try to do, things just don’t work out.

Disappointment, pain, anxiety, depression, jealousy, and helplessness.

You try. You cast your net to opportunity hoping for something but you come up short.

I know that feeling all too well. The easy thing is to give up. But God says “No.” Every valley, trial, and setback is TEMPORARY. It won’t last forever. God says, “To everything, there is a season.”

There is a time to learn and grow. You just need to keep trying. Try each day. Cast your net. If you get nothing, keep trying.

EXAMPLE YOU ASK? Why of course…

I have tried and tried to find a job in the legal field for a while. I prayed and applied. Pray and applied. I have lost count at how many job applications I sent. After send came the same news, “Thank you for applying but we decided to move on with another candidate.” Rejection after rejection. It was enough to crush me. But I kept applying no matter how bad I felt. My mom would even say “Keep casting.”

I say keep casting as reference from Peter, the fisherman in the Bible. Here is the passage: Just as day was breaking, Jesus stood on the shore; yet the disciples did not know that it was Jesus.  Jesus said to them, “Children, do you have any fish?” They answered him, “No.”  He said to them, “Cast the net on the right side of the boat, and you will find some.” So they cast it, and now they were not able to haul it in, because of the quantity of fish. So Simon Peter went aboard and hauled the net ashore, full of large fish, 153 of them. And although there were so many, the net was not torn.-John 21:4-6,11

You see, I was not alone. Peter, as a fisherman, was struggling with opportunity but Jesus would not let him give up. The result was TEN-FOLD. I mean he got enough to have a fish fry in the village.

But back to my story, I casted one more application at the end of July. And God delivered TEN-FOLD. By August, I had a job. YES! A JOB! One that God designed for this season. I still have to pinch myself that God did this.

God is looking for trust and obedience. It does not mean that you will understand everything. I went in with a little faith but God says if you have the faith of a mustard seed, that a tree could be uprooted into the sea (Luke 17:5-6). Even in our small faith, God plants perseverance and endurance in us but we have to be willing to go our own selfish desire and pride. We have to cast our nets by faith.

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Don’t give up. Embrace the season. It is a lesson. You will get where you need to be in God’s timing. Keep at it. Keep casting.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Back to Basics: Work At It

Back to Basics: Work At It

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Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,  since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.-Colossians 3:23-24

No matter how mundane you may feel your life is, you have a purpose. From the littlest thing to the biggest task/project/chore you can think of, God wants you to WORK for him. Yes, taking out the trash for the glory of God. Who knew!?!

I was talking with my mom about my mundane life and she rebuked what I said. Like WHOA, mom. But she was right; I was complaining about my mundane schedule and life. But my mom explained how the little things matter to God. God sees the devotion, dedication, blood, sweat, and tears and honors that. He is saying, “I’m proud of my child. Keep going!”

So whatever you are working at, towards, or through, go for it. Do it for Jesus. God sees everything from the big to little. He honors hard-work, obedience, and unyielding trust in Him. Your work will pay off. Remember that fire starts as a spark. You need to give the work your all. Nothing happens overnight but if you work at it, God will work it out for you.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Back to Basics: Be Better, Not Bitter

Back to Basics: Be Better, Not Bitter

Life has a way of twisting and turning your focus, direction, and perspective on life. I was convicted in a sermon message about my own bitterness in my life. The pastor was talking from the LOVE Chapter (e.g. 1 Corinthians 13:4-5) about how “love keeps no record of wrongs.” He used that passage to highlight about how love does not have bitterness.

Bitterness is defined as exhibiting intense animosity or marked by cynicism and rancor.

The pastor talked about how bitterness can transform and alter your outcome. Bitterness turns into complaining, complaining turns into doubt, and doubt turns into a lack of focus on your future/destiny.

As I sat in my chair listening, I really thought to myself, “Am I bitter?” The truth is I was and did not realize it. I was bitter. I was complaining. I was doubting too. As I have written before, I was living at home, second failed attempt at the Bar, and just stuck. I was trying to function but still had this dark bitterness that made me feel helpless, like the world was laughing at me. I was a failure and a fool.

After church, I confessed to mom that I was bitter about everything going on. My mom and sister agreed that I would sulk in that bitterness and carry it with me. TALK ABOUT A WAKEUP CALL.

I really let it go too far.

But you know what? The pastor stated that God can take that bitterness and turn it into something sweet. He will give us His sweet presence, His peace. But the thing is: I had to keep the past in the past. It happened but I cannot dwell and live there. I need to move forward. Yes, life does not go as planned but God has something sweeter ahead.

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I truly wrestled with that. I had to look into my heart and let go of what happened to me. Yes, I failed the Bar twice. Yes, life did not go as planned. Yes, I am living at home, trying to find work, and helping around more. BUT, God does not discount what I have been through. Actually, He is using it for something sweeter.

The Bible says “Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!”- Psalm 34:8

God is good all the time. The Enemy is working overtime but God works ALL the time.

God is working it out but you and I cannot live in the bitterness of the past. Easier said than done but it’s true. You cannot move forward with bitterness. Yes, life can derail you but you cannot give into it. You can acknowledge your past but DON’T LIVE IN IT.

It takes God’s daily strength and power to wake me up in the morning. I can’t do it by my own power. Ask God for that power to move forward. Ask every day, every minute, every hour of the day. Bitterness eats you up alive. You can’t let it steal your joy.

Be better, not bitter.

Blissfully,

Bianca

A Breath of Fresh Air: One Thing Remains

A Breath of Fresh Air: One Thing Remains

For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God. For, “All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall,  but the word of the Lord endures forever.” And this is the word that was preached to you.-1 Peter 1:23-25

Not every plant is a perfect, beautiful bloom that lasts. Not all plants and flowers in your garden stays. In the order of life, things die and darken, the flower petals lose its color, and fade into dust.

BUT one thing remains: Christ.

Like grass, in the grand scheme of life, everything fades. Nothing lasts forever. People change. People die. In one moment, your ally is now your enemy. Finances change, jobs are lost, relationships turn for the worst, you hear the diagnosis, and every change you can think of.

Yeah I know…Bianca, you are a Debbie Downer…

Well I’m not always writing to paint a pretty picture; I am writing to be real with myself and you all.

Nothing in this life is permanent except for Christ. God is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. There is security and stability in the mist of uncertainty.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Words of Bliss: See Your Growth

Words of Bliss: See Your Growth

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Remember to look back how far you have come. Were you the same person a year ago, 5 years ago, 10 years ago? Whether you grew in inches, feet, ounces, or yards, you still grew. Whether it was a new career, going back to school, overcoming addictions, finding love, taking ownership of your life, it’s all growth. It can be as simple as the daily decision to wake up earlier, to have your morning quiet time with God, eating veggies over that piece of pizza, making time to spend quality time with your family and friends, etc.

In my own life, though I am not in the dream job I want, God has humbled me by teaching me patience.

Don’t believe me? I asked my mom how I grew or if I grew in the pass two years. She stated: “You are growing. You are getting more patience. You accept certain situations and keep moving. You are getting a little bit better at getting criticism.”

The humbling moments are always hard at the moment. For me, I am in the humbling stage of growing in my legal career. Though, I am not where I want to be, God has grown me. I started to see that I was not the same after a year or two. Life is a daily, evolving metamorphosis. It takes a daily decision to grow. It’s daily steps of progress. You may not see all you do until later.

When a gardener plants seeds, it does not turn into a flower immediately. You take care of the plants. You keep at the commitment to make sure your plants grow by life-nourishing soil, providing water, making sure the temperature is right, kicking out pests and weeds, and giving light. You may get a little a day but it will pay off.

Then in time the plant yields more and you see you were growing all along.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Words of Bliss: The Growth from the Rain

Words of Bliss: The Growth from the Rain

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Beautiful things emerge from difficulty. The dirt and compost of hardship build the roots with waters of truth, strength, determination, and perseverance. The elements of rain may cause downpour but the lessons can be taken to grow and bloom stronger leaves, stems, branches, and everything in between. Flooding drowns the plant if the plant does not soak up the lesson of the storm. God will not allow the flooding to overtake you but you must decide whether to learn or lose. There are lessons from the rain but you must allow growth. There is purpose for growth in the garden. Blooming is a struggle but you emerge stronger.

So how are you going to grow?

Blissfully,

Bianca

Where I Have Been?

Where I Have Been?

Like a tree, it goes through seasons. There is a time of growth and change. It is green and full of life. The blooms and fruit come forth. It goes through range of reds, oranges, and yellows depending how close they are to the sun. All the leaves fall and die to make way for new growth. 

With me, life has happened.  I was employed for the midterm elections (early voting and election day) as a poll official which was an eye-opening experience. 

Then, after that…I felt stuck. I felt depressed with the season I am currently in. As you know, I did not pass the Bar. At the beginning, I was positive and empowering myself that I will take it again and this won’t break me. 

And then it broke me…

As I started studying again, my spirit felt damaged. I was doubting myself. I just felt stuck. Like God, I am right where I started earlier this year. I am an unemployed, postgraduate studying for the Bar again. 

People I started with made it. And I didn’t make it.

I was depressed and my anxiety made me lower. I had to take a break from social media. And I just stopped blogging. My spirit was not in the right place to write inspirational posts. I don’t want to fake it. It would not be fair to my followers. I want to be as authentic as possible.  So I just stopped…

I did not want to let you all down but I couldn’t go on. I had no inspiration or theme to post about. I wanted to find the peace that surpassed all understanding. I wanted to be content in this season. That this is not the end for me.

I am feeling better. I had to take my own advice: get back in the Word, pray, talk out my feelings, and keep positivity in my life. I am still going at studying for the Bar. I am still living and breathing by God’s grace. I still have purpose.

So my lesson in this struggle is simple: God will not let you go.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”-Joshua 1:9

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.-Isaiah 41:10

It always seems to me like God is watching this unfold but He is not. God knew this before the foundation of the world. He knew that I would not pass the Bar the first time around. He knew that I would be between states once again. He knew that I would need my family to get through this. He knew I would be serving on my church’s worship team. He knew it all.

I have to remind myself that I am not a failure. I’m not dumb. I am still meant to be an attorney. It’s just that my journey is not over. I will get there in His timing by His strength. 

It’s just not my time now. I am still in the autumn stage with beautiful, bright, colorful yet dying leaves. But I know it will spring up into new blooms soon.

So with this season, I will not be posting blogs till Spring 2019 (i.e. after the Bar). I am focusing on Bar studies and myself for the time being. I hope you all understand. I love and appreciate you all for reading. Keep reading my old blogs. Send me a message, follow me on FB, and keep being inspired. God Bless.

Blissfully,

Bianca